Ugh.ย Letย meย justย beย honest.ย Iย amย aย completeย messย down bust down.ย Well,ย maybeย notย aย complete,ย butย Iโmย dangย sureย partial.
Chileโผ๏ธ
Iโm not even going to say the devil is busy. Of course we know his simple self is up to something, as always. However, this is different. Iโve been praying for certain things in certain areas of my life. And Chile, God is working one on me! Every day is a fight.ย Thatโsย whyย youย shouldย stayย ready. So you donโt have to get ready.ย Thank you Jesus it isnโt anything detrimental happening. I always keep in mind that things could be worse.ย So,ย woo–sah. Chile. I be having to talk to myself! I have to talk to myself as if Iโm someone else coming to me with the same problem. What would I tell them?!ย Theย truth!ย So, I do the same with myself! I tell myselfย theย bluntย truth. Sometimes we donโt want to be honest about our feelings. Our thoughts. Chile. I be embarrassed I feel like.ย Youย feel me?ย I be whipping myself back into shape. Who has time to be moping around? Not I! Those days of calling people up on the phone who are already moping around having their own pity party is ova. I cut that years ago. But just recently, well, Iโll say a little over just recently did I truly understand the things that are right in my life.ย Evenย whenย Iโmย goingย throughย Chile.
Now check this out. My I.D. just got up and left the building! It just, vanished. I am clueless to what happened to it. No. Like forreal. I canโt find it. Itโs like what? Week three now?! For those who donโt know. Not having a I.D. on base is like trying to drive a car without wheels, literally. AND PLEASE! Donโt be that person that asks, โDo you know what you did with it?โ โWhere did you last have it?โ Ummm. Listen to what youโre asking me. If I knew what I did with it, it wouldnโt be lost. Right?ย Iโmย Justย Saying…
We have searched high and low. Still, ainโt found the I.D. in the first. Even Naomi pulled out her flash light. Rob done made so many faces while looking for it.ย Err. I know I wonโt find it until I past this test though.ย Iย alreadyย know. Some will understand & comprehend exactly what Iโm sayibg. Others, well not so much. Just know Iโve been asking God for something and He is not making it easy for me. Then the devil is tripping or whateva because my Bible has been opened more than Iโm sure he likes. Whateva.ย Iย mean,ย whenย isย theย devilย knownย notย toย raiseย hell!
I have made three attempts to get me a new I.D. Today my husband even took me on his lunch break, toย Deersย to get me back right. ๐ฅBAM!ย Non in void! Chile. I could have cried. (Shoot.ย Iย wantedย too.) ย Right there in the dang office. I was so, so blown. I still donโt have a I.D. We left the place and came straight home. I have not talked about it since. (Well,ย untilย now.) I didnโt come home and complain eitha. I didnโt whine, not nothing. I just said, โThankย youย Jesusย anywayย .โ I put Naomi down for a nap and then laid across my bed. Mentally exhausted. I was sooo frustrated. I ainโt lying. I wanted to drop kick a wall or something. It wasnโt even 1 oโclock yet and already I felt like my day was just upside down. And itโs Monday at that! What a way to start off the week. (Iย startedย thisย blogย Mondayย night.ย Itย mayย beย Fridayย beforeย youย readย itย though.ย Haha.)ย Umm…justย beingย honest. Before I knew it, I was trying to have a mental pity party. I had to get up!! Clean something, fold something, read something, something!ย Aย jackedย upย day.ย Doesnโtย mean a jacked up life.ย Okay! I need for you to understand that.ย
Iย rememberย whenย Iย usedย toย rideย around,ย lookingย forย pleasureย inย musicย andย sceneries.ย Yeah.ย Trustย me.ย Iย knowย thingsย canย beย worse.
So with that I try not to trip overย nothingness. Iโve been praying for God to take that away by the way. Being overwhelmed overย nothingness. So yeah, thatโs that. Letโs move on. Cause I ainโt fitting to linger on this here I.D. no mo! Next time you see me. Iโm going to have a new identification. *Twoย snapsย andย aย twist.*
DIDย YOUย VOTE???!!
Truth moment. Iโm not big at all into politics. All jokes aside I pray to God for the craziness in this here world. And yes, I trust Him. Thatโs how I get down in my life. The only POTUS and FLOTUS Iโve ever followed behind (And still do.) of course is the Obamas!!! However I do educate myself on what is going on so I will be educated on my voting, etc. Iโm just proud to be a black woman who can use her voice. And Iโm gonna use it too! Oh, how we have come a long way in that department.
Now, I havenโt set down and watched the news since my husband has been a Marine. So what, since 2009. Yep. That doesnโt make me ignorant to whatโs happening in the world. Trust me. But I know what to and what not to feed my spirit. And the news for me! Ainโt it! One of my past time friends once said to me, โGirl you need to watch the news.โย ME:ย TUH!ย What I wanted to tell her (All jokes aside. But I wonโt trying to hurt her feelings at the time.) was, โAnd you need to get a whole new man! Cause while you and yours are sitting watching the news, mines is fighting the war you worried about happening in ya shabby tail living room.ย Paaaalease!
Any-who. Whatโs next?….
So Iโve been getting up everyday watching ย โTheย Pottersย Touch.โ Ya know,ย T.D.ย Jakes. He preaches for a goodt, and I do mean a goodt thirty minutes. Usually I watch two episodes. Thirty minutes just ainโt enough for me. I would usually only do this on Sunday mornings. But Chile, one day a week ainโt cutting it right now. It has been so fulfilling too. It keeps me from waivering in my faith. It keepsย myย eyes on the prizeย type of thing I guess you can say. Starting out my mornings with that after reading myย Dailyย Devotionsย isย aย needย moreย thanย aย want.ย
So listen. I just took my braids out. I washed and conditioned the heck out of my hair too. It was so dirty. Nawl. Mybhair was filthy.
Chile. Iโm so over trying to find someone to do my hair. Iโm already unsatisfied before I even find someone. So what is when the point. ย Itโs just too much. I move way too much to be trying to find someone to do my hair every time I turn around. Most of the time I braid my hair. Itโs easy for me, affordable, and I be cute. Iโve even been asked do I do hair. Iโve been watching a few YouTube channels on silk pressing natural hair. I think my first time came out pret-ty good. I was actually shocked Chile. Every little thing counts. Hence, the โchaseย method.โ I quickly learned about. Iโm really into getting my natural hair how I want it. Iโve neglected my hair with sew ins and wigs for so many years now. Iโm over it. Donโt get me wrong. If I could get me a bomb sew in right now, at the very moment. I would!ย Haha.ย I want to train my hair to be how it was when I first met my husband. Waaaaaay before, and when I say, waaaaay before I eva thought Rob would be my husband. I mean that. Woo Chile. Iโm taking it, what thaws say? Back, back? Iโm taking it back, back! Thatโs a serious hair goal though. Iโm going to see what Iโm looking like in a good six months. You ainโt gone be able to tell me nothing. Hopefully in four months, shoot. My hair is already healthy and thick. (Thank God finally to the healthy party.) Iโm more of a straight hair natural girl. I rather do a silk press than two strand twist. I really would like to master a bun. I eventually want a real ponytail. Not just the pony. If ya know what I mean. Haha. Trust me. I know all about that. When I was pregnant my hair was flawless. For one, I had just moved to Cleveland. So my old stylistย still had her prints on it. (Iย missย her!)Then too, Iโm sure my hair was healthy because like I said, I was pregnant. After I had Naomi, every thing went! Even my edges. So three years later. Iโm happy Chile. Iโm out the woods! Now I just need to find some pavement! I reckon Iโll start making yโall some videos and posting pictures on my social media.ย IG,ย Twitter,ย SnapChat. One of those accounts. Most likely it will beย IG,ย Pinterest, andย Twitter. So yeah. Thatโs that.
Ummm…what else? Before I wrap this thang up.
Iโll just leaveย youย withย this…
Theย testย thatย youโre going through is designed to hurt you. If it doesnโt hurt you, it doesnโt help you.ย
Iโmย Justย Saying…
xOxO.
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